The need to remember xx

Over the last couple of years (since Dad died) I have become to get worried about what would happen if I was not around to look after all the little Langs! Dad's biggest concern was that his 'little ones' would not remember him! What an awful thought! My Grandad died whan I was 11 and I struggle to remember him or the things we did together. Alot of my memories are formed around photo's, which I am pleased to say we have alot more of these days.
One of the things the Mamillan service do with their patients is a memory box, so that those who are left have some sence of who the person was, what they loved, what made them mad, what they laughed and cried at, events in their lives that mattered. I thought I might do the some of that here - Emily, Samuel and Tamsyn might want to know when they are older (when like me after you have lost someone are desperate to cling onto anything that still connects you to them). They might not! Hopefully i'll live to be very old and bug them forever.
I read a book last year titled 'things my daughters should know' It was about how after recieving a letter from their Mum who had died each reacted, embraced and rejoyced in this letter - all meaning something different to them.
If I was to go early I would want my children to have something telling them to 'go forth......and have so much fun you can hardly fit it in' hehe. As my friend Emma said though when we were talking about this book that you need to write these things when your fit and well as you never know what is going to happen. Very wise words Emma.
They might read this one day and realise how very strange I am, hopefully they will laugh alongside me, not at me. They will notice that I write mostly about them and their very exciting adventures as this is what is important to me - this is my life and what I enjoy. They all are at such fantastic stages in their lives. School after all are supposedly the best days!!!!! I hope they read this and remember all the silly things we have done.
Now to concentrate on being happy and having so much fun we can hardly fit it all in xx